| Location | Kent |
| Age | 1 day |
| Cause of Death | Premature Birth |
| Date of Birth | 09/03/2009 |
| Date of Death | 10/03/2009 |
| Visitors | 3,608 since 15/03/2009 |
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When that little blue line showed up on my test I cried with happiness, she wasn't planned but I was so so happy. All the scans were fine and my due date was given as 22 June. At the nucral scan I was told risks were very low, the 20 week scan all was fine, I even had a 3d scan done at 21 weeks so I could meet her and get a dvd of her.
On 2 March I woke up at 3am, my waters had broken. I was so scared. My friend rushed me to hospital where a doctor confirmed this and a paediotrician came and told me my baby girl had a 50/50 chance of survival. I was of course devastated but wanted to keep my hopes up for her sake.
I was rushed to the Royal Sussex by ambulance as my local hospital didn't have the facilities to deal with a 24 week old baby, her dad followed in the car. I went straight into a delivery room and was put on a monitor where I was told her hearbeat was ok and she was moving around loads so was obviously very happy. That gave us all hope. Later that night I was moved onto the ward and told that my waters may well reseal. I had obs done regularly and was put on antibiotics to try and ward off infection. After two more days on the ward and my waters slowing down I was told I would be going home the following Monday.... how wrong they were.
I started getting pains on the Friday and spent the weekend in the delivery suite being monitored. I had another scan which confirmed Skyler was head down so if I did go into labour she was in the right position. She was also said to be a good weight and there was some fluid still in place even though the leaking had started again.
Sunday passed with hardly any cramps and I was feeling more positive as the next day she would be 25 weeks which increased her chances of survival to 70% and Monday morning they moved me back onto the ward where the doctors came round and said they were going to keep a close eye on me.
Monday night the doctors came round again as I was now having definite contractions. An examination confirmed I was 1cm dilated and I was again rushed up to delivery and put on a monitor. The monitor showed Skyler was in distress every time I had a contaction so a decision was made for an emergency c-section and the doctor told me she was unlikely to make it.
I was too far away for anyone to get there to be with me so I didn't even phone anyone to let them know. The midwife I had with me was my rock and thankfully she was brilliant as by now I was really panicking.
Skyler was born at 10.40pm on 9 March weighing 1lb 7oz. I caught a brief glimpse of her as they moved her up to the Trevor Mann unit for intensive care and she looked tiny but perfect.
I was taken to recovery where the midwife stayed with me and what seemed like hours later but was in fact only nearly 2, the consultant came in and told me the news I really didn't want to hear. They could not stabilise her and felt it was cruel to keep going. I was whisked up to see her and she fell asleep in my arms just minutes later.
She stayed with me being cuddled in a private room all night and for that time I will be forever grateful. She was so bruised and her face was swollen but she was still my perfect angel. The nurses allowed her to stay with me for the morning to give her dad and my mum time to come to see her. I miss her so much. Will always love you my baby.
Tiny baby in my heart
I ache to hold you near
Before I even knew you
I felt your presence here
Inside my womb I kept you
Ever peaceful from the storm
I knew that you were always safe
And I knew that you were warm
The days ahead will try me
As I come to terms with grief
Time will take away the pain
But love, will never cease
RIP my angel Skyler xxx
A Birthday In Heaven - by Unknown Author
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel XX
To The Child In My Heart - by Unknown Author
Precious, tiny, sweet little one
You will always be to me.
So perfect, pure and innocent,
Just as you were meant to be.
We dreamed of you and your life
And all that it would be
We waited and longed for you
To come and join our family.
We never had the chance to play,
To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you, touch you now
And listen to your giggle.
I'll always be your Mother,
He'll always be your Dad.
You'll always be our child,
The child that we had.
But now you're gone, but yet you're here,
We'll sense you everywhere
You are our sorrow and our joy,
There's love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong,
We'll forget you never!!!
The child we had, but never had,
And yet will have forever.
Everytime I look at Skylers picture I am so taken by how perefct and beautiful she is. I don't think its a coincidence that the sun has been shining and the sky has been a beautiful blue since last week ... I'm sure she's sending you a message and smiling down on you to let you know she's there, looking after you and letting you know she is ok until you can one day see her again. xxxxxx
jos baby girl
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there, I did not die.
love you welshy xxxx
She was a beautiful angel and I am so sorry for your loss
May knowing you're in the hearts and thoughts of others help you through this time of sorrow
Gill xxxx
I cant begin to imagine the pain you are feeling at the moment,we lost our baby girl 5 years ago nothing compares to the pain,so many questions so much sorrow,your perfect little princess will be looking down on you everyday,im so so sorry for your loss,thinking of you im here if you need a chat.
Sleep tight lil one xxx
Sleep tight baby Skyler. I love you so much... I look at the stars in the sky, and you are the biggest one!
All my love kisses and cuddles...
Jess
xxxxxx
thinkin of you
just clicked on and see mummy has sent you a message princess well im join her and say were all thinkin of you and you will be for ever in our minds today and always one day we will get to meet you and hold you sweet dreams xxx welshy xxx
a week on...
hope you are happy in heaven my baby. Daddy and I are thinking of you now and always xxxx
TO THE MUMMY AND DADDY OF SKYLER
I SAW YOUR BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER SKYLER AND SHE IS YOUR TREASURE AND YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS AND SHE WILL BE SHINNING ON YOU AND SPRINCKLING HER ANGELDUST AND SHE WILL HAVE A GREAT TIME WITH ALL THE OTHER BABIE ANGELS IN BABY NURSERY SO TAKE CARE AND MY LOVE GOES TO YOU ALL LOVE TOMMY JACK HEWSONS MUMMY NIKKI X X X TO SKYLER X X X TO MUMMY AND DADDY X X X HUGS X X X
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